Moving

So I made the move to the thriving metropolis of Gvegas. Shocker after saying I would never work back here again - funny how things work out exactly opposite of how you think they should. But for all the shock and awe of being back at the corporate level again - I am so sad about everything else that is happening around me. Jobs are going left and right - and now that I know what's happening, I could see how it came about from way back when. Things slowly winding down, production cuts, etc; I'm trying to find a way to keep my "family" close to me.

On other notes, I am still trucking along in the single life and grateful for that tiny treasure at the moment. I want someone around, but not enough to commit myself to someone right now. I have too much emotion in me to try and drag someone else into that mess at this point. Besides all my emotional turmoil, I want someone that will actually care about me.

I'm taking charge of some things in my life - one being my health. I am watching what I eat, joined the local Y today so I can workout on a daily basis. I moved out and moved in with my dear friend L. I'm more reflective than I have been in a long time. Really taking time to analyze me and what I want out of life. I'm tired of being taken for granted, tired of being walked out to make everyone else happy. I am who I am. I like who I am - I will give you my all and nothing more. Use me once and I have nothing for you. Take me for granted and you can learn to do it for yourself. I am going to be stronger, mentally and physically and find my "niche" in the world. I want to be...for lack of better quote....all that I can be. And I'm going to get there with or without you.